Centering and Working OutI

"I know worry works because nothing I worry about ever happens." this was a quote from an email from Judy Ringer which was actually on her friend's office wall... I like it b/c I am a serious worry person and I seem to actually like to worry.

Okay so there is a reason to offer this.

I was at the gym today (yes I did go again!!!!!) on the elliptical machine ( I do not thing that is how it is spelled) and thinking how many times do I worry... counting the times that worry came into my head as Judy suggested to open myself up to this reality and witness my own behavior.

Okay here it goes:

1. The man next to me was struggling with how to run his machine and I worried about whether to help him or not..eventually he asked the staff to help ( I felt guilty until he pulled his hood over his head and began to breath in a heavy kind of weird way once he was taught).

2. I worried about the event that we are having at the Progress Center in a few weeks...would it come off okay....how would we finish the painting that needs to be done...would enough people come....

3. I worried then about my son, is he happy...does he feel alone in the world...are his struggles too much for him

4. I worried about my daughter...what will her daughters do when she moves to LA in a year...what will I do

5. I worried about the finances at TPC...we are so close to margin..what else can I do

6. I worried about the man across the room he looked like he might have a heart attack...then I worried that I might

7. But if I had a heart attack at least I would not bear the burden of Alzheimer's which I will have since my genetic chances are like 90 %

8. Then I thought about the budgets at work and my QA report due in two days

9. Then I wondered if I can really afforded to take the leadership classes I am interested in...

10. Then I wondered if my face looked all screwed up like the person in front of me lifting weights

11. Then I worried that I looked fat with my floppy arms...

it went on like this for thirty minutes and seriously is that really enough time anyway???

I was off to lifting after 30 minutes which was relief b/c I no longer had to pretend that I could read the TV ....

Do you think the men in the gym where all worrying while they produced sweat on machines? I think I need to get a life!